Perspective

Lola and Loup have developped a lot their sense of friendship lately.

They confide and tell everything, just everything to their verybestfriendforever.
Their lil friends are very concerned, supportive.
That is so good.
 
There's a lot they don't tell me that they share with their friends, already.
It's a good moment in their life to start building their own world. They need it.
Specially at the moment when they can't or don't want to share all their fears and questions and anger sometimes with me, or their dad.

They do need it and as often as I can, I invite their friends at home, even for bloody homework ; )

Winter kitties

When my babes are away, I am so grateful to get feline love and cuddles!
They're lazy, they keep acting like teenagers (making stupid things all along the day, trying, testing, breaking), but they're really part of the lil gang we're forming now : )

Fast train

If I felt like a master @mutltitasking before... then I knew nothing about it.

Life has turned to be weird, crazy. What should I focus on at this very minute? My blog? another job hunt? my bed?

I feel energy back to get over the three past months. Sometimes though I crash down, pretty badly. Feeling lost, alone, wanting to protect my babes more than anything. Sometimes wanting someone to take care of me too... yeah that sucks, I don't want to *need* anyone.

Well tonight, I'll focus on my blog, some things never change and I don't want that writing habit to change. At all : )

Surrounded with love

I spent a wonderful Christmas in Bretonie.
My babes and parents around,
A blessed moment.

With boots on : )

Done : )

My varnishing is over.
It went wonderfully : ))

but i am exhausted to a point I feel sick inside, outside.

I need to be in a world with no stress, no bad news, just for a couple of days.

I need love and warmth. My babes are not far, i get love.

My kitties are stuck to me, i get warmth.

I feel lucky to get both.

Yellow belt for my lil warior

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** dancing around, grinning with pride **

November's always in the shadow ..

... Of December and Christmas!
I'd hate to be November, honest!

I don't know how to deal with Christmas this year... I hope my babes will get the best of it. Well ok, they're already having a taste of it : )

The tooth fairy ..

...gets bad habits.. like loving chocolate or craving for a cigarette at the moment.
But I spread my lil wings and made a good job : ))

 The other day my baby boy woke up in the middle of the night. He came to me, said his moving tooth was really boring. I told him to just take it off (I was joking of course).
Well, he did it!











Arggg! I could "hear it"!

I get two "Conan the barbarian" at home, I think. hehe :P (and one Red Sonja, or two... three maybe!)

Pretty devil and lazy demon

this photo was such a hit on FB that I really had to share it on here ;-)

It's the kind of photo where the photographer is nothing, anybody can make such a photo.. BUT... the moment is unique and if you do not capture it... * shrugging *.. it's lost!

Vernissage (and lil helpers!)

I get 3 weeks to finish preparing my painting exhibition. About 3 other paintings to do... 1/3 of the painting are framed, being framed (acrylics, collages). I get more troubles with all the watercolours.
And I get lots and lots of candle holders to make, their colourful light will add what I need to the atmosphere.  God, days and nights are way too short.

I've just received the flyers (a LOT of them), and I gotta admit they're nice!

I'm focusing on it just now, it's helpful when you see the chaos in my life right now. I needed such a project, and not in 3 months.
 And yes, I believe it's just good practice for all what will happen in the coming year.


The devils want to help, talk of that day like a BIG day. That's so wonderful : )

Yesterday, we went to buy fabrics in Montmartre and a few other stuff (lights etc). They're very serious about everything when it comes to the vernissage. That motivates me, makes me a bit optimistic :)

What have I captured here?

This photo of Lola...

She's actually watching Paris from le Sacré-Coeur but... it was as if she tried to look at (the past, the future?), she's upset, insecure?

I don't know.

Yeah.. it's just a face expression, but I don't see often that expression on my shrimpette's face. I wanna cuddle and reassure her.

The past was great and the future will be.

Same mama, same devils ..

Lately, I often tell the devils one day they'll be super proud of their mom...
One day, I'll take them with me to show my paintings in New York and Tokyo (my two main targets! lol).

They always answer "but mom, we're already super proud! "

aww...

Talking of art, Lola is developing a taste for acrylics! She has already a very personal way to use colours and paint!

As for Loup, he a taste for collages ! ... it's very funny, he gotta think a lot before associating "papers". That's very interesting, I must show you his work. I'll add a pic later.

Sucking sun's energy

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Hunting

Been hunting yesterday with the shrimpette... hunting for shoes naturally! She found a pair she loved, she was flying above the pavement once she started wearing them!

And I ... god, I wasn't looking for anything... but I found kind of betty boop shoes (can't find any pic of them! grrmmpph), super high heels (12cm?), rocking ones.

Well I did not buy them, but added them to my mental list.

Brown boots and Betty Boops shoes will come next.

When I am rich.

Loup and Moana

Loup has been enjoying judo more than usual lately...

And I finally found the adorable reason why he's been so motivated.

The reason is small, blonde, very energetic and totally cute.

My baby boy just melts already in front of a pretty girl and gets as nice as a lamb then.

That's good, very good.

The eye of the tiger

We went back to the hospital yesterday to talk with the guy there about Lola's improvements.
She has got only two real epileptic crisis since the beginning of her treatment (a month ago), several times she felt her body starting to shake but she could control it : )

It's quite good, the treatment is working, even if it had to be a bit intensified. She does not suffer from any of the side effects.

So she'll go on with the treatment, except that instead of having it for 6 months, she'll have for a year.

Pretty good to me that it works so well. My shrimpette is a real fighter, not that I had any doubt about it : )

Gene Kelly, Lola's new hero

My devils keep surprising me... Loup starting with modern dance and Lola wanting to start with tap-dancing.
Tap-dancing... I had to explain her really what it was.
And show her.
When she discovered Singing in the rain earlier tonight (and for the first time in her life,) she said she absolutely, totally wanted to sing in the rain the way he did !


(haha yeah!!! Gene rocks! I'm totally supportive again :P)



** happy sigh **

Surprised but supportive of course !

haha I did not expect my baby boy, (cut in the wood, strong and heavy like a mini rugbyman), to ask me to start  
modern dance
at school !

Whether Loup is very  creative, open, wanting to learn anything new (which is very true), or he knows he will be surrounded with pretty lil girls.
I think both :P

He already does Judo, which he LOVES, but I think that might bring him another kind of pleasure.
I'm very proud he makes his own choices already, insisting there's no reason only girls should know about dancing! : )))

Paris, Roger, Reds, Ramblings

Well, first day at school and the leaves are just flying all around. That's the paradox: the season is changing, nature losing its colours and lil jewels... but I don't know the melancholy of autumn, to me It smells like new year's starting! .... ** stretching, awakening from summernation **

Everything is speed just now (lol) but in a more organised way.

Multitasking had reached a ridiculous point, I couldn't properly work, I couldn't properly focus on one thing at a time in the past weeks.

 Ooops !
Did I say I was more organised?
Because I've just realized that on next Sunday, I have my self-defence course in the afternoon, and ohhhh merde! ...gotta do my Parisian race in the morning! lol

6km only! phewwww... After such a day, I bet I'll sleep like a baby! Anybody will still be welcome to sing a lullaby.

Support
I need some.... Martin wants Loup to learn violin, and I don't think I can stand that at home!!! You know what it sounds, a kid learning violin for years? ... I'm a good mama yet... I know my limits!


Finally
My devils are back to school. Loup has just started a big year, about to learn to read and count and everything that will give him more freedom! Yayyy, I'm so happy!

At the same time my babe is so small in this big school, with big boys all around! Boooo
Hard to be a relaxed mama.
But hey, he's got a great teacher, and same for my Lola. They both got the very best, I'm so relieved... and well, ermm...  happy! (sorry I'm repeating myself ;-)

Familly thingie?
Tonight, they're back to ballet and Judo, while their papa will be training at krav-maga and just before I go for musculation . I guess we're into sport! lol

Is there anybody out there?
Before I forget, happy birthday Roger! ... Roger Waters, I do admire his talent so deeply... yet just like John Lennon, I've never got good vibes for the guy. I need to meet you Roger and check by myself! So.... come back to Paris with cheaper tickets next time, pleaaaase : )

Such a courageaous shrimpette : ))

Lola and I finally spent our day at Necker hospital on Friday.
I expected a short appointment, but they decided to make the necessary tests in the same day to confirm what they instantly said, from the symptoms and the videos of Lola's crisis.

We came back in the afternoon so that she could get another electroencephalogram. She had to fall asleep so that it could work properly.

It was very hot in the hospital, she was comfortably installed in a room with soft music, etc. After 15 minutes she was sleeping. The lil electrical connections in the brain started to talk a language I don't know.

The professor, the head of the neurologist department, was a tall man, taller than Martin I think. About 70 years-old, with a white beard and a mixture of super clever and sweet touch in the eyes and expression.

Lola was very impressed, in a good way.

He talked to Lola all the time, told her to come and watch the videos of her own crisis (I had never shown them to her, it's way too scary, already for me)... and was truly scared of her own image... but then he told her it was normal, because she suffered from a (small) form of epilepsy, and that is exactly what happens to people suffering from it.

She has started a treatment.

She was very happy to get a treatment. To get words. To have an adult talking to her about what she had.

I was sad and happy. Exhausted from the day, the stress.
We left hospital, I took Loup from a friend and one hour later, we were on the road to Brittany, to breathe for two days.

Lola slept wonderfully on that Friday night : )