Perspective

Lola and Loup have developped a lot their sense of friendship lately.

They confide and tell everything, just everything to their verybestfriendforever.
Their lil friends are very concerned, supportive.
That is so good.
 
There's a lot they don't tell me that they share with their friends, already.
It's a good moment in their life to start building their own world. They need it.
Specially at the moment when they can't or don't want to share all their fears and questions and anger sometimes with me, or their dad.

They do need it and as often as I can, I invite their friends at home, even for bloody homework ; )

Packing life and luggage

to find much desired and needed warmth and love in Bretonie : )

See ya from there : )

wooooshing out **~~*^* *

Love potion.. under construction?

on the canvas yes!
Otherwise, no way.

I hope to have it done for the varnishing. It will be both acrylics and collage.

The canvas is really big (1m15 high), I'm loving bigger stuff (huhu)

When I work, I forget everything.. November life, etc.
Work, sport and time with my babes are the very best medicine to that cold and grey atmosphere.

Anyway, if it goes the way I have it in mind, this will be the central piece of my varnishing. I have still so much to do to organise everything! Arg!

Sucking sun's energy

---- Envoyé avec mon beautiful BlackBerry® ----

Breathing a bit !!! (I hope patience will pay)

Because it's been 6 months I've been waiting to meet someone who could really help me with Lola and her symptoms of  "night's epilepsy".
Lola's started to get these crises back in December with no possible reason. We thought of sleep troubles, intense nightmares... it happened more regularly then. And it was more and more shocking, like epilepsy can be. She's got tests, she saw doctors, neurologists, with no real diagnostics.

As a mom, that is so frustrating to be unable to help your kid. Lola asked why nobody helped her. She was mad and sad. And so was I.
Broken heart.

Then finally two days ago I got that call from the French Children's hospital, Necker hospital. 
15 minutes from where I live in Paris : )))
Lola and I have an appointment there in 10 days! Oh god, I am so so happy!!!
Yes, I am so happy yes, you can't imagine, Lola will meet one of the best French neurologist specialised in kids.
It's a first relief. Really.

Recovering tigers

Both Satan and Conan have been operated ...

I did not enjoy that day when i sent them to be opened , cut and sewed.

But they recovered much better than I expected. Satan (on the left) could jump on Lola's high bed (2 meters high!) as soon as she went out of her travelling box.

Conan, on the right, ... well Conan slept for a day... then, on the next day he was already trying to fuck again ... if that is not typical, huh !!! ... (not making any conclusion!)

Je t'aime, moi non plus

Conan and Satan, both aware Summer is in the air already.

(I truly thought Spring would be enough to them, but nenene!)
















(from youtube): "this song should be sent into space to prepare aliens for the French"... lol !

Some things that you find

are beyond your control

Like... there's thunder, it's raining, I'm just back in Paris. It's hot. My imagination wanders through the rain drops. Beyond my control.



I love you and you're beautiful.

And I love that song : )

a red fairy tale

Just for me : )
Once upon a time (erm, last week)  it was my birthday, but I wasn't into the mood.
I had just lost someone (my mom in law, a couple of days before) who used to make the world look so much better.

I felt like... who will make the world look better now she's gone? I was not very convinced. Down, really.

But then, a friend of mine, an adorable lil woman with freckles and sparkling eyes, knocked at the door. I opened, surprised.

She was standing there, grinning, with 4 kilos of strawberries.

4 kilos!

"happy birthday!"
she said

Suddenly he world looked really pretty.

I want to examine every inch of your frame

There she is again. Petite addiction.

Cannes, back to 1990

Do you remember the time when Nic Cage was not totally ridiculous on the screen?
I was a total fan.
Do you remember this one? Wild at heart?
This was so passionate. Just how Life should be!


Wild At Heart (1990) par bmoviebabe

Me Candy, you Jane

Jane...
Isn't it a super feminine name?!

Which Jane come to your mind? Tarzan's? Eyre? Fonda (haaa pretty Barbarella!) ?

Jane Campion was so far the only woman winning the top prize at Cannes Festival a few years ago with the Piano. I found that quite surprising. Not chocking, just surprising.

When I think of that (powerful) movie... I believe it had to be made by a woman. There was a particular approach. Feminine I think.

I love her sensitivity.

And I like when she talks of the "romantic impulse", that I would translate as "passion"..

"I think that the romantic impulse is in all of us and that sometimes we live it for a short time, but it's not part of a sensible way of living. It's a heroic path and it generally ends dangerously. I treasure it in the sense that I believe it's a path of great courage. "

Amen :)

I’m a high school lover, and you’re my favorite flavor

that fits the mood, Spring, warmth

Body talks

I talk making lots of gestures...
I easily make faces, I sigh, I (discretely) yawn, I jump from happiness, I kick ghosts from anger.
My body talks a lot!

Then, my red hair, my boots, the muscles I try to get, probably the way I walk. Fast and determined. Yeah of course my body talks a looooot.

And now I understand there are kind of subtitles on my body... my tattoos!

If it was aesthetically ok... 50% of my body would be covered with snakes. yeah I know... scary! Good I am very coquette. lol
Snakes are clever, they represent knowledge, freedom, selfishness, it's very masculine, complementary to the woman, to me.

ha well, that would be too many snakes and that would scare (not!) the devils.

Anyway, I have discovered that I had an arm made for love and one for freedom! Yeah that rocks! And well, that sounds a bit 1970-ish but I'm proud I naturally get both concepts in the flesh. I did not wanted these lovely concepts particularly, it's my body that revealed them.

On my "love" arm, I want to get an anchor, meaning how much love matters to me, no matter the storms, the deadly waves, Love is here (chabadabada).
Then roses around because it's cute it could symbolize different forms of love. Love flourishing in different ways. Like one rose for Lola, one rose for Loup, I don't know. But love grows, love expanded. That's the idea maybe. Love is not static.

Anyway, that will be one of the ideas for my next tats. Sunny will soon come back to me with her talent (I want her own style for them).

PS: check the gallery, there's Martin's pirate tat' on it :P

Cats in the cradle (meowwww)

10 days now Conan and Satan are part of the family!


On the first day, they were a bit shy. Just seperated from their mama (sigh)... who started to push them away, anyway.

They did not know where to pee. Which was the expected big source of stress to me. They were not clean yet. Soon we discovered they peed under the Xmas tree! lol. Yeeehaaaaa!
But 24 hours later, while the Christmas tree was suffocating (not from their pee yet but) from their mini feline attacks, they were clean already. Fantastic.

Ok, when I change their litter and it's all new, they like it SO much that they both start to sleep on it! //OO\\

They're very very affectionate, they don't hide, they don't fear Loup and his strange behaviour (Loup has introduced all his weapons to his cat.... Conan of course :P)
Conan the grey is very affectionate, he's bigger, he loves fighting too.
Satan, well, we're still not sure he is a male (lol), we even think that finally Satan is a female. (Let's talk to the Pope now! he gotta know!). Satan is much smaller, very clever.
Both are so affectionate!
They sleep with me, well on me, my neck, my breast. I feel feline with them around.

And god, something I do not regret at all (so far :P)... is having 2 cats! They play together all the time!!! they attack each other, clean each other, play, cuddle and sleep. Oh I would recommend that to anyone.

Their mom is a tabby cat (chat de gouttière), their dad... we're not sure, 3 possibilities. But the ex owner told us that among the three there was the most beautiful cat she had ever seen. A big angora one. And well, they both have really long hairs! I don't care about who's the papa of course... but honestly they are the most adorable kittens you can imagine!

A Christmas with moustaches

We're just back from Hamburg... to welcome Satan and Conan! The devils did not expect anything, you can imagine their happy shock a couple of hours ago.

Conan is the adventurer! haha his name suits him perfectly!
Satan is super shy. I did not imagine "Satan" any other way ;-) ... but he already shows signs of a very clever lil feline mind! :)))


Ok, I'm super busy with a hundred things (unpacking luggage etc)... but I had to introduce you the new relatives! They're so small! aww : ))
Ok, I warn you, there will be of course zillions of pics in the coming days :)

Yayyy!!! I'm going to be a mom again!

The other day my gyno told me I was in perfect conditions to have a third baby...
huh???
A third baby??? haha!!!


Yet, I thought about it. Gave it some serious consideration.
Finally, I took some decision........ and * things * happened!

... but I just don't know who the father is!
* shrugging *
I'm a modern woman anyway! :P

And, well, it's a boy! He already gets my eyes with such a clever sparkle in them!!!


Check by yourself:



I expect him for next month!

Such a lil tiger, said to be already very adventurous (2,5 weeks old only!)













And then... big boy has a lil sister... I wanted a girl since Joe's death. And they're always stuck together. My flat's tiny but they'd be happy together no? Is it too much work, too many HAIRS?

Dunno. I must take a decision before Monday... I really do need your advice...
She's so cute, and shy and I want to  protect this lil creature (who seems to have the sensitivity of her mama - ME - !)

Meowwwwwwww!!!!

Time with my lil wolf

I gotta say, shopping with Lola is much more fun, because she's like a lil lady : interested in shoes and stuf that really matters :P

But spending some time alone with Loup is also very funny!

Well of course you have to resist his strong desire to get new weapons... and he can be REALLY insistent and determined (sigh!)

... but then, he is so alive, curious, funny, open to anything, that even spending 45 minutes in the metro turn to be a real exciting adventure!


His imagination goes beyond what I could believe possible. And that makes life with him very unique!

Waving goodbye to lovely Bretonie

First day back in Paris... first concert (!), first friends ("Woaaaaaaa! it's been a months I've been waiting for you", so France shouted as taking me into her arms! hehe that was sweet)... first happy times with school friends for the devils, first bonjour every 3 seconds as walking outside. Paris is truly a great city to me, warm and friendly.
But cold, shit, I need sun and heat already...

I woke up 2,3 times last night, not knowing where I was anymore. Expecting strange birds to sing, old Bretonish ghosts to move around. But I'm adjusting already.

Summertime in Bretonie was really some kind of experience. And I don't talk of the sunbaths only. A total independence. Far from the family (...), far from everything. I've discovered great neighbours, some making the best drinks, the others already keeping the devils at night sometimes, and another one always bringing food for 10 when invited! lol
Then I got the visit from dear friends there, their presence changed everything. I've spent some times of true happiness.


Comfort was limited, as I had no kitchen, nothing to make the laundry, nothing to warm up the house but the fireplace. But it was fine, perfect.

My predator

I can't use my wounded finger as well since yesterday, can't stretch it at all but... I managed to finish my last painting! I'm back on the rails, and ready to paint a new world!
I've got what I wanted. I'm pretty happy with it ! So much work involved, you wouldn't believe it :)